Learning Patience... Never Give Up!

Patience is a virtue that I am lacking. I am impatient in traffic, impatient when the internet loads slowly, impatient with Brian, and impatient in the check out line at the grocery store. I was an impatient teenager, waiting to grow up, move out, and take the world on. I was impatient in college, eager to learn everything from microbiology to Monet, save the starving children, and get those hard earned diplomas. Now I am impatient for... more. Sometimes this impatience has lead to tragedy (see the previous post), but most of the time this inner impatience has led me to work harder for the next thing. Now I am in a stage of life where the next thing isnt as concrete as a diploma, a first job, or a house. I am in the stage of life where there is a lot of waiting and seeing, a lot of finding satisfaction with the stage you are in, a lot of finding success in the smaller things, and a lot of putting my faith and trust in something outside my control.

I have a hard time with this stage of life. I dont know what to do, I am not a wait and see sort of person. I am not patient. I like to know what comes next, I like to plan, prepare, and make lists. This stage of life doesnt come with a to do list, it doesnt come with a calendar, or even an academic plan- this stage of life is tough. Over the past few years I have watched many of my close friends transition into this grown up stage of life. The stage where you leave the safety of school, get real jobs, develop a routine that doesnt revolve around papers, lectures, and midterms, and grow up. It seemed easy enough when I was watching from the sidelines. The lack of deadlines seemed blissful, the homework free weekends seemed endless, and the mere thought of final free Christmas plans lead to hallucinations of a heavenly choir. But now that I have the weekends to myself, and the evenings free from required reading I am... lost. Now is the time where I need to learn patience. I am learning slowly, learning to live in the moment, love the stage we are in, and put my trust in more than a written plan. Oh patience... why I cant I learn you faster!

While on my quest to learn patience I came across this video...